strength

This was a post I had read from a mother whose son has Leukemia-
Every time I would read a sad story on the web about another parents heart ache over a sick or lost child, I would count my blessings. Thankful, it was not me. For I knew that if it was me, I wouldn’t be able to handle it. It would cause me too much heart ache and pain.
Here I am though, trudging through it, remaining strong. You have to. You have no other choice.
So to cope, I cry.
I cry a lot.


Now that I am going through this with Nathan, my heart goes out to all the other mommy's whose babies have cancer, I just cry when I read other stories, because I know what they are going through. I know how hard it is to find that strength. Sometimes I just want to scream!! People always say oh you are so strong, we are praying for you, my heart goes out to you, but when they hang up the phone or they turn around and walk away, their lives are normal, they can walk away and keep going along with there day, but want is great about this is that Nathan is strong, and he does turn around with a smile and he keeps playing, he doesn't care, and thats AWESOME!!